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DARK MEETS LIGHT MEETS DEATH MEETS LIFE

A Short Story

John needed a life, is what it all boiled down to. The problem, as pointed out by his family and few friends, was that watching with rapt attention things like Senator Cole delivering speeches was hardly the way for John to try to get that life.
“C-Span again?” Tom asked as he entered the living room.
“My new life, that’s what,” John declared, sucking in his middle-aged gut and extending a firm, decision-maker’s finger at the fifty-five-inch TV screen. “I’m gonna be a senator, too, one day.”
Tom rolled his eyes. “We know.” He sat on the recliner. “And soon, right? Hitting the campaign trail this summer?” He grinned at his brother-in-law. “You’ll need a running mate, though, a vice senator. Have you ever thought of that?”
Snatching the remote, John thumbed the volume down. “Running mate? No, I haven’t. Who should I choose?”
Tom’s balding head reflected brilliantly the sun-rays streaming in from the living room window. His grin widened. “Oh, I don’t know. Maybe one of your co-workers at the Dollar General. One of the neighbors. Some thick-skinned comedian who is looking to revive his career. Make sure they at least have a high school diploma.”
With a furrowed brow, John thought it over. “One of our cashiers at Dollar General just graduated high school,” he said, then returned his sights to his program.
Tom smiled sympathetically at his brother-in-law. He beheld John’s spellbound gaze and dexterous note-takings as together they watched the talking-suit on the television discuss the Compensation for Nuclear Damage Allocation Act and its foreseeable impact on the 21st century farmer.
In comparatively equal degrees in need of a life as his brother-in-law, Tom grinned, and said, “Speaking of…farmers.” He reached into his jean pocket and pulled out his rubber chicken. “Channel one-hundred-fifty-seven, pleeeeease.”
John blanched. In a hoarse voice, he said, “One-fifty-seven? That’s The Poultry Channel. Suze’ll cake us for sure if she catches us watching that. Especially...” John looked over with wide eyes, “if she see you with your little toy.”
Gripping his chicken, Tom reflected. “Just picture it. Litter floors, all teeming with fresh young hens; every one of those beauties so willin’, so wantin’ to get in a good lay…of an egg or two.” Tom gulped. “Uht-oh, here comes your wife.” He pocketed the rubber chicken.
The sound of footfalls materialized into the form of a woman, one with strawberry-blonde hair and a strawberry-red smear on each cheek that foretold of a darker, angrier shade of red that could flare up on those cheeks without warning. “Okay, boys, it’s time,” she said. “Remember—our guest? The one who’s traveled all the way over from New York City? C’mon, let’s get it in gear before Betty Crocker ends up whackin’ some dudes broadside.”
John raised his finger in the air. “Just a second, hun. Any hour now a secretary of something, of defense, maybe, or the interior, or the exterior—will be taking the platform to discuss, I don’t know, something or other. I can’t—no way I can miss that one.” John buried his fingers into the sofa’s armrest as if to physically anchor himself against having to get up and go get ready. With his eyes fixed on the television, John shrugged. “I’m not afraid. Chocolate ain’t so bad. I like chocolate.”
Tom liked chocolate too, only not splattered all over sofas, walls, floorboards, and the few stubbly hairs on his balding head that refused to grow out no matter how many applications of Rogaine he applied. Besides, infrequent laundering left chocolate residue on his clothes for weeks. Warily, he eyed the walls of Susan and John’s home with their splotches of brown stain that marked the residue of past chocolate “misses”—the windows…mucked over in chocolate smear—the ceiling…in spots looking like chocolate-covered popcorn. Tom braced himself with his eyelids clamped shut, as his sister reared back and hollered,
“GET IT IN GEAR!”
John hopped to his feet. Tom opened his eyes. Together they fluffed up the sofa cushions, dusted off the cat, only to re-seat themselves, calmly, the instant Susan exited the living room.
The doorbell rang.
Tom and John rushed headlong into the kitchen. They splashed water over the counter-top and across the front of Tom’s Broncos jersey, tore the coffee filter, scattered coffee grounds on the floor. Somehow, they were able to get the coffee brewing.
“He’s herrrre!” Susan bellowed from the hallway, with a frosty glare over her shoulder at her husband and brother to make sure they were getting the coffee grounds swept up, as she readied her hand to open the front door.
About the same time the coffee finished brewing, a gentleman not a wrinkle shy of ancient-looking, with the requisite cane in hand, and a kindly smile to share, ambled his way to the kitchen. Halting at the threshold from hallway to kitchen, the old man eyed the linoleum floor, glass-topped kitchen table, soapstone counter-top, sunlit grass of the backyard streaming in through the bay window, and the pen drawings of the American and Colorado flags suctioned against the refrigerator with magnets.
“I drew those,” John said, smoothing a hand over his helmet of blond hair to make sure it was still finely combed. “Kinda good, huh?”
The old man raised an eyebrow.
Gracing their kitchen with his presence was the most celebrated art historian in all of New York City, and therefore, in all of the world. Dr. Rudolph B. Stiller. The esteemed gentleman was asked to have a seat.
The gentleman positioned his chair underneath him. “Well…” he declared, in an attempt to break the conversational ice that so often laid claim to these appointments, especially early on.
While Tom and Susan sputtered dry-mouthed pleasantries like “Oh, please, make yourself at home,” and lavished overwrought praises like “Oh-em-gee, I can’t believe it’s the one and only Dr. Stiller!” John came to the decision that he was not one to be star-struck by celebrity.
He straightened his invisible necktie. “Dr. Stiller,” he said, his chin up, and voice effuse with confidence, the words flowing, “as one really, really important person to another, I’d just like to say you do yourself proud, sir, by coming all this way to see us. Yes, proud, for your selfless devotion to all things art. You are an inspiration, not only to us here, in these jurisdictions that rise mile-high and are packed to the gills with Democrat voters, and Republican voters, and independent voters, and illegal immigrant voters and—”
Tom flashed eyes of rage at his brother-in-law. “What he means to say is—thanks for coming, it means a lot to us.”
“Means a lot to me too,” their visitor exulted. “When I heard you folks might have in your possession the original Toulier painting, well, how could I do anything but jump on the first plane over?” He smacked his cane against the floor. “I flew coach. Can you believe it? They fed us peanuts.”
“Dr. Stiller, I believe I can speak for the three of us when I say—”
Tom quieted when he saw the wrinkly old palm their visitor had raised.
“Please,” the gentleman said. “It’s Professor. Either that, or you may call me Uncle Rudy. Dr. Stiller makes it sound as if I were here to swab your throats and take your temperatures.”
Tom chuckled. “Sure. Okay. Got it, Professor. The three of us…we know very little about art.”
“Would anyone like a slice of chocolate cake?” Susan said, with a leer. She approached the table holding a platter topped with cake slices in one hand, and a pot of coffee in the other.
“Yes, all of them,” John blurted.
“I’ll take them. Over here….” Tom hopped from his chair and scampered to position himself astride the garbage receptacle that topped the floor next to the sink. He raised it. “Three-point shot, Suze. Give it your best shot. I say you make seven out of ten.”
Lowering the platter and coffee pot onto the table, Susan, with her hands free, proceeded to swat John’s groping hands away. She wagged a finger at her brother. “I was asking the Professorrrrrr.”
“Cake, for me? Ah, no thank you. I’m rather too old for anything besides prunes and, well, maybe a little Sherry on the side.” The professor paused. “And I don’t mean wine, either. Rather I refer to the sixty-one-year-old grad student from the Upper West Side who warms me all over with her easy-going charm and her refreshing perspectives on medieval Catalonian tapestry-weaving.” The professor nodded at the coffee pot. “I will have some of that, though. I take cream and sugar, by the way.”
Susan poured the coffee, then slid over a carton of cream and a ceramic teddy-bear dispenser whose head pulled off to reveal sugar. With her smile broadening, Susan, in a slow, methodical operation, relocated the cake slices to her plate until she had erected a cake-slice pyramid towering all the way to eye level.
“That’s a lot of cake for just one person,” the professor exclaimed.
“That cake,” Tom sighed, “is for us.”
“It’s for their own good, Professor,” Susan added, in-between hums. “My husband, I think, even likes it.”
“The frosting especially,” John said, gulping.
The professor cleared his throat. “The Toulier painting. Do you have it with you?”
John bolted for the living room. He returned with a framed piece of cardboard with hundreds of ink lines strewn haphazardly across it. Gingerly, almost reverently, John handed the cardboard over to the professor.
“Jumpin’ Jehoshaphat!” exclaimed the professor as he took the item in hand, his sights darting back and forth in examination. “The lines—they look ever so much darker, more defined than they do in the reprints. Dolgren was right.”
“How about the corner?” Tom hastened to put in. “The fabled wrinkled corner, there at the lower-right side. Just as all the old rumors claimed, right?”
The professor screwed up his face until his wrinkles piled on top of one another. Finally, he answered, in a toneless voice out of the side of his mouth, “And now, not to suggest you good folks would’ve had anything to do with it—” his eyes remained transfixed on the cardboard “—but more often than not these turn out to be forgeries. And yes…” He raised a bushy white eyebrow. “There are ways to tell if a work of art is authentic or not, some of those ways being more standard practice, shall we say, than others.” The professor winked. “So, let’s give it a try…” He stretched his arm toward the cardboard then pressed a bony, trembling finger square up to it. His finger in position, the professor mumbled something—at the cardboard, as if speaking to it. The others decided it best not to ask.
The professor’s jaw dropped.
Whole minutes passed.
Susan could at length bear no more. Frowning, she said, “It’s not the real McCoy, is it?”
The professor sighed. “I’m sorry, folks.” He lowered his finger. “But I can’t definitively say…” The old man started, trembling, gasping. In a thin, reedy voice he moaned like a small animal in its death throes. “Auuuuuuuuugh…” Raising a hand as if to shield his eyes, the professor lost his balance then fell backward and landed, all akimbo, on the floor.
“Can’t definitely say what?” John asked.
The professor clutched wildly at his chest.
Susan rushed over.
Tom whipped out his cell phone. “What’s wrong? What happened?” he demanded from across the table as the operator on the other end answered.
“Arm’s over his face. I think he’s fainted. No, wait. Hand’s on his chest. I think he’s…he’s…”
Susan flinched. Hesitating, she backed off
“…having a great big smile on his face,” she finished her sentence.
The old man arose, deftly, without his cane. He had sunglasses on.
“Hello?” a voice sounded from Tom’s phone.
Tom hung up.
Over in the living room the cat, who up until this time had been reposing as a still-life portrait on her cushioned caddy by the fireplace, was all of a sudden up and about, and meowing, loudly.
The professor exclaimed, “The original this is. There can be no doubt.”
The masks of concern on the faces of Tom, John, and Susan were assuaged but little by this positive authentication which under normal circumstances would have roused them to cheers.
“I brought along a pair.” The old man patted the empty breast-pocket of his shirt. “Just in case. The darkest pair that I own.”
“Are you all right?” Susan asked, the concern still showing darkly in her eyes and in her knitted brow. “What happened?”
“Art attack.” The professor chuckled as he reseated himself.
The smile said it all. It was big, and bright; and he had sunglasses on. “Where in the dickens did you get it?” the professor asked, reclaiming his cane from the floor.
Warily, Susan eyed their visitor. “Oh,” she said, the wrinkle of concern in her brow leveling off a bit. “You mean the painting?” Finally, the professor’s smile convinced Susan that he was at the very least not injured. She said, “We found it at a tag sale was. It was just lying there beside an old sofa.” Susan turned to Tom. “We didn’t think much of it at first. But, then, Baldy, my bro here, not long afterwards watched a show on the Discovery Channel...”
Tom furrowed his brow. “I’m not bald. Hair here, and way back here, see?” Tom cleared his throat.“The show was called The Hidden Mysteries of Art.” He wiggled in his chair. “Allow me to set the stage for you. It was a Wednesday night. I was hardly even paying attention to the TV because, well, see, usually on Wednesday nights—”
“You’re online, gaping at chickens?” With the professor okay, and space now given her, Susan’s usual verve had returned.
Tom cracked a smile. “Uh, no, Susan, no. Anyway, Susan—I mean, Professor; wait, where was I?”
“I’ll finish ‘er off.” Susan took over. “Okay, so he sees this painting bein’ talked about on the TV. The painting is called Dark Meets Light Meets Death Meets Life. It was painted by, well, you know who--” Susan smiled at the professor “--Toulier. Wouldn’t you know it, the painting looks exactly like the picture that his smart-as-a-boss sis Suze has gots hangin’ in her study—with its fabled wrinkled corner, and all. Of course, word was that the original Dark Meets Light had been stolen from some museum. This happened years ago, back in the ‘30s, I think it was.”
The professor folded his hands. “August 4, 1935. The security person went to relieve himself then returned to discover the museum had been relieved of its prized display.” He raised raised an eyebrow. “Might you all have been the burglars?”
Scratching his head, John looked at Susan. “I don’t think we’re old enough, are we?” John stood. Raising two fingers in the air in V-formation, he announced, “I am not a crook.” His eyeballs swimming with pride, he said, “Just a senator.”
“A wannabee senator,” Susan spat through gritted teeth.
John sat back down.
The professor trained his gaze upon this husband, wife, and what appeared to be the brother-in-law, wondering why it was that fate should have elected these three. “You folks,” he said, easing a smile, “may have upwards of two million dollars to show for your tag-sale purchase.”
Tom and John made loud cheering noises then shared a high-five, a fist-bump, then another high-five, all the while they exclaimed, “Wow!”
Susan just sat there and stared blankly with two lambent blue eyes. “Excuse me, Professor,” she said, screeching to a halt all of the cheering. “That art appraiser, Mr. Dolgren, the guy who owns that shop here in town whom we visited first-off then who had referred you us to—being ‘in the mood to buy’ as he said he had been, and ‘out of the kindness of his heart,’ offered us much less than that: only $20,000.”
The old man whacked his cane against the floor. “Dolgren, that old devil. Ha!”
“Two million big ones?” John combed his hair helmet with his fingers. “Why, that’s enough to buy a van. But, wait, I don’t get it. All that I see here are just a bunch of messy black lines criss-crossing this piece of cardboard. How can this piece of cardboard be worth, like, all that money?”
Glances were exchanged across the table.
This was the big moment.
“Is it really true,” Tom said, with bated breath, “What they say about...”
“About what?” Susan asked.
Tom sided a glance at the professor “You know, about...” he lowered his voice “...the colors?”
The professor framed a resplendent smile that made a verbal response to Tom’s question unnecessary.
“You mean you’ve seen it?” Tom nearly spilled his coffee so energetic was his jump up from his seat. “You yourself have seen the colors, firsthand?”
The professor kept his smile. “You’d really like to know that, wouldn’t you?”
“Of course we would, Professor,” Susan said, reaching over to pacify her brother and pull him back down into his seat.
The professor reddened. “Listen, I am first and foremost a historian. How about for starters some history? My telling you, that is, a bit more about the painting itself, yes?”
Tom shrugged. “The Broncos game isn’t on until seven, and they’re in second-to-last place anyway with no hope whatsoever of reaching the playoffs. So…” Tom rubbed his hands.
The professor adjusted his glasses. “Which then would you prefer, the long version or the short version?”
“Medium,” John said.
“How about short.” Susan would save the word of rebuke that she had for her husband for afterwards.
“Okay then, short.” The professor cleared his throat. “The truth of life…” he said, “can be seen only in the shadow of death. Living and dying are simultaneous, and inseparable.”
Silence loomed. A solitary yowling from the cat was all that interrupted these thought-filled moments of quiet.
“Quoting someone?” Susan said, at length. “Toulier. Those must be Toulier’s words.”
“Not Toulier. Santayana. Who was a contemporary of Toulier’s and a famous philosopher in his own right.”
Tom, John, and Susan had not the slightest idea who Santayana was, nor were they of a mind to further inquire of an elderly gentleman whose forthwith gaze out of their kitchen window was to suggest all that was to be said had been said. The others observed while the professor fix his sights on their bird-feeder with its blue jay accompaniment.
“Long version, how about?” Tom offered.
The professor smirked. “I was waiting for you to say that.” Propping his cane against his seat cushion, he poured himself some cream then dropped two spoon-fuls of sugar. The others watched as the professor sipped his coffee. “Henri Toulier,” the professor said. “Artist. Philosopher. Frenchman. Soldier in the Franco-Prussian War…which took place back around 1870. Long story short—France lost the war, and Toulier lost both his arms. The cannon he had been standing in front of during his participation in the German Siege of Paris was not only loaded, but his compat manning the thing had the ill-advised sense to set it off. Toulier survived; his arms did not.” The professor gripped then studied his mug with the words “Rock the Vote” printed on the side of it. “Years later,” the professor smiled, as he set the mug down, “Toulier would be quoted as saying that ‘calamity can cannonball both ways,’ and though lamenting his losses, referred to his wartime experiences as ‘the most rewarding set of humiliations that could have ever been introduced into the life of a hoodwinked son-of-a-knave the likes of which was I.”
John scratched his head. “What does hood-winked mean?”
“Behave!” Susan stretched a hand for the cake slices in front of her. She pulled her hand back. “Let the professor continue, please.”
Cutting glances at the cake slices, the professor thanked Susan for looking out. “For see, Toulier had in his pre-war years been a member of the social class known as the bourgeoisie: he even carried an umbrella with him everywhere he went. Now, it wouldn’t be until after the war...” the professor sipped his coffee “...that Toulier would come to realize that it was the bourgeoisie whom the French ruler, Napoleon III, had sought to appease by declaring war on Germany. Toulier right then and there came to identify the perfect scapegoat upon which to avenge his lost arms, even in spite of himself. He was said to laugh maniacally in those early years. It has always been my consideration that Toulier would have done himself well to have paid a visit to an alienist.”
John’s eyes bulged. “He visited an alien? Cool.” He paused to consider. “The one bad thing about aliens, though, is that they can’t vote. Or can they?”
The professor clarified, “The term ‘alienist’ is nineteenth-century vernacular for ‘psychiatrist’.”
“Thank you, Professor,” Susan said in an even voice, “for that. What happened next?”
“What happened next…” the professor said, sipping his coffee, “was that over the years following, Toulier would take up the reins of a philosopher. In 1873, Toulier came to deduct the following: that the bourgeoisie—the pharmacist, the banker, the shop owner, the jewel no less the engine of nineteenth-century progress—lived colorlessly. Colorlessly, which in Toulierian verbiage is to say ‘without rarefied aspect’. Further concluding, that so long as the bourgeois lived colorlessly, without rarefied aspect, he could never find true happiness. The whole of life became, then, for such an individual, according to Toulier, a struggle. Not just a struggle—a battle, a war. The everyday war of human will against human will, each of us battling over some representation of the promised prize of happiness only to discover that the happiness gained in attaining the prize is outweighed by the happiness lost in the battle. Toulier hated war, in all of its variations. He saw war as the antithesis not only to peace, but to happiness. It was war, of course, that had inflicted upon him the deepest unhappiness.”
Susan pursed her lips. “That sounds something like self transcendence.”
The professor nodded. “Something like.”
Tom mused. “Happiness. What an interesting subject. What is it, right?”
Susan blinked. “Professor...” she said, tugging at his shirtsleeve.
Chuckling softly, the professor mumbled something about a blue jay that kept diverting his attention. “Yes, colorlessly...” the professor said, reclaiming both his preoccupation with his narrative and his vigor of tone. “See, Toulier’s story really begins when after quitting feeling sorry for himself, he set out in search of an alternative means of happiness, one independent of the colorlessness, and the coldness, that he had come to identify as the stamp not only upon the lives of so many around him, but on his own heart, as well.” The professor divided glances between his three hosts. “Finally, in 1876, Toulier discovered it: what he would refer to as the Full Colored Life. Perfect happiness. If you can believe it.”
“Perfect happiness?” Jon said, wreathed in smiles. “Why, I’m as happy as a pig in a blanket. Though, I must admit—I’ll be that much happier once I’m elected senator.”
Susan glared sourly at her husband.
Tom straightened in his chair. “Are you telling us Toulier wasn’t an artist at all, but a philosopher?”
“That’s what I’m telling you. A philosopher who wrote books—over thirty of them. Speaking of which...” the professor angled himself to face the painting; he pointed “...you see these lines here…?”
“What about those lines?” Susan asked in her earnest tenor. “I couldn’t help but notice, Professor, how earlier you referred to them as dark.”
“Oh, and dark they are. Toulier used India ink! Now, I have mentioned Toulier the writer. Well, these lines you see here were not the work of a paintbrush. Rather, they were the incidental drippings off of Toulier’s pen at which time he’d written the first of his books, titled Color Me Content. You see, Toulier couldn’t afford a desk early on, and so this slab of cardboard he just used as his makeshift one.”
Susan inched forward in her chair. “You mean to say that when he wrote his book monsieur had a quill pen he’d drip into an inkwell—”
The professor nodded
“—and from the inkwell to the paper a trail of ink would drip, and which, drip after successive drip, would come to crisscross the underlying cardboard into this messola here?”
“Precisely, my dear. Because you must remember, Toulier was by rights a messy writer. Without arms, he could only write with his teeth. It wasn’t until many years later that he would be able to afford a secretary unto whom he could dictate.”
John slurped his coffee. “So why, then, Professor, has this messy-looking cardboard become like one of the most famous paintings in the history of this land of the free and home of the brave?”
There was a moment’s silence as the professor folded his hands together.
“I know why,” Tom said, weakly.
All eyes turned to him.
“I’m sorry I didn’t mention it to you guys earlier.” Tom looked appealingly at John and Susan “It’s just that I had wanted to get some feedback and confirmation first from the professor.” He bolted his finger at the face of the cardboard. “This painting’s supernatural. It’s like a Ouija board.”
“Ah, no, no,” the professor snickered, leaning back in his chair. “Don’t say such things. Toulier would roll over in his grave if he heard you call him as an occultist.”
“A Oiuja board?” Susan frowned.
The professor in his polite manner requested a refill. John replied that he would be only too happy as the professor might one day repay the favor by voting for a particular someone. “This man Toulier—” the professor held out his mug as John poured “—passed away finally in 1929. Never mind the date, but hear me when I tell you that in the weeks following two of his pupils—names of Clara, and Lucie, took upon themselves the necessary task of cleaning out his Paris flat. Old clothes were tossed, notes and letters were placed in storage. However, when the time come to address the piece of cardboard:
“‘I’ll stash it in the attic for now,’ Clara proposed.
“Lucie nodded. ‘Wait a minute,’ Lucie halted. ‘Why not lay it over there in the corner by that ceramic bust of Napoleon.’
“Clara nodded. “Over by Napoleon—I was just about to say that.’
“Long story short, Clara and Lucie came to discover that in every decision they made with regards to that piece of cardboard—they agreed with one another, right down to the final decision that it be donated to an obscure art agency called the Collector’s Authority of Clermont-Ferrand. They arrived at this unique decision separately, you must understand.”
“Walk the line,” Tom whispered in the shadowy, furtive manner of secret-sharing at the ear of Susan. “Walk the line,” he whispered at John.
Even the professor appeared touched by Tom’s reverential treatment of the matter. “Thank you, my friend,” he said. “Thank you. Words to live by. No, to die by.” The professor adjusted his sunglasses. Removing them, even this far out in time, could have untoward consequences including permanent vision impairment. But the glasses were on—there was no need to take them off; he could see, and so might this Tom person, in time. The professor said, “Your friend here seems to know a thing or two. Guess what? He might die on you soon.” John blinked. Tom gulped. Susan gasped. Everyone grew excited. “Now, where was I?”
Tom exclaimed, “They walked the line. That’s why they could agree! The Full Colored Life. Perfect happiness!”
The professor framed a smile specially for John and Susan. “Within the next few months—dead.”
Susan clutched her husband’s arm. “Wait,” she said, furrowing her brow. She said, slowly, with a far off look, “Dark Meets Light Meets Death Meets Life.”
The professor folded his hands. “Walk the line, our exuberant friend advises. That line, no doubt, he means, that Toulier himself walked and wrote about in his many books. This simple expression has since become the catchphrase for the whole of Toulerian philosophy. Walk. The. Line.”
The professor scooted in his chair until his scoliosis didn’t hurt as much. “Now, back to Clara and Lucie. So, one day, the two are back up in the attic, bored to tears sorting through all of Toulier’s old papers and notes, when, perhaps to break things up, Clara decides to play a little guessing game with Lucie. ‘Hey, Lucie,’ she says, ‘pick a line, any line.’ Lucie asks if Clara has maybe had too much wine and why is it that she won’t speak in plain French. Clara says, ‘With my mind’s eye, Luce, I’ve got the tip of my finger touched to a certain spot on this cardboard here. Guess the spot, and I’ll give you my signed photo of Valentino.’ Lucie, who was a big fan also of Valentino, thinks about it then stretches her finger in an attempt to guess the spot.”
John giggled, loudly.
Susan’s expression flattened, as she looked over. “What is it now?”
John’s face reddened from the giggles. “The professor. His voices. It’s funny.”
Susan rolled her eyes. Sighing, she said, “Allow me to translate, Professor. My husband here thinks your character reenactments of the two French women is amusing.”
The professor wiggled in his seat. “You know, a large part of an art historian’s job is the dramatic arts. Every painting has a story. We do what we can.” He sipped then set his coffee aside. “So, anyway, guess what, folks? Lucie picked the very spot of line that Clara had chosen. Excitedly, Clara answered her...” raising his chin, the professor declared in his high-pitched, French-accented Clara voice, ‘Let’s follow the line itself!’”
The professor nodded. “And so they did. They walked the line, as it were, matching decisions at each step of the way—decisions, say, about whether to keep moving forward along the line, or to veer off to the left, the right, or onto other intersecting ink lines. Well, these two ladies, initiated and well adept in the tenets of Toulierian philosophy, mind you, soon decided their way along in this manner until lo and behold every single line on the cardboard had been traced, as if magically, by their in-sync fingertips. At which time—voila! The spaces in-between the lines, the empty spaces of cardboard untouched by line, filled in, if you can believe it, with color before their wondering eyes. The cardboard suddenly looks to them no longer like a cardboard but like a magnificent stained-glass window. Which only they could see.”
Susan batted her eyes. “All I see here is a white slab of cardboard laced with thousands of black lines. I don’t see any color.”
“Perfect happiness is to be found at the end of a line,” the professor said. “You must walk the line, all the way. Then you die. Then you get colored in.”
Tom jumped to his feet. “This is so cool. I’m like a kid at school. I wanna play dodge-ball. I wanna ride on the swings! I wanna—”
Susan sneered. Breathing in, and out, she gripped one of the cake slices. “GROW UP!” A split-second later, chocolate frosting splattered across Tom’s shoulder. The professor blinked in astonishment. Susan turned to him. “You said we could get two million dollars for the painting? That much, really?”
“It would be put up for auction, naturally. Two million is just an estimate.”
“What happens now, then?” John asked, thumbing a lump of frosting off of Tom’s lapel.
Slowly, his joints protesting in spasms of pain, the professor rose from his seat. “Nothing happens, for now. Would you not like to get top dollar for your auction item and ensure that it goes to the home of a reputable and responsible collector?”
The three nodded.
“In which case—you just let Uncle Rudy take care of things. I have your phone number, yes?”
“We gave it to your secretary or whomever it was that I talked to on the phone,” Susan said.
“Good. I wouldn’t want to go through the trouble of getting you into an auction—say, in Prague, and not have your contact info. Give me a month to tap my network of connections. In the meantime, don’t let that painting out of your sight!”
“We’ll keep it locked up in the closet, right alongside—” Susan rolled her eyes “—Senator John here.”
Hearing his name and the word “senator” said back-to-back in the same sentence made John’s heart swell with pride. Gathering himself, he snapped into public-servant mode. Reaching to pump the professor’s hand, John thanked him for coming. He asked the professor if he might be a registered voter.
Darting a wary look at Susan, the professor answered, “Um, yes?”
John said that that was good because the “in-crumb-bent,” one “Senator Reubens,” was one tough customer, and so he, John, the “non-in-crumb-bent,” was going to need to strum up as many votes as possible if ever he was going to—
“Enough.” Susan crossed her arms. She stomped her foot. “Enough!”
John released his grip on the professor’s wrinkled hand.
Tom asked, in a faltering voice, “Can you walk the lines?” He cleared his throat. “Can you see the colors on the painting?” Louder, Tom clarified, “Like Clara and Lucie did? Is that maybe why Mr. Dolgren referred you to us, because you’re the only person in the world who can authenticate it because you’re the only one left in the world who can see it?”
Susan wheezed. “Now, Tom,” she said. “You know the answer to that question. On that show you had watched, didn’t you say they had said something about how Dr. Stiller was the only one something or other? Why patronize the professor by asking him a question he’s probably been asked a thousand times that you know the answer to already?” Fighting back a smirk, Susan said, “Why not instead ask him that question you ask all of our visitors once Big Sis is out of hearing range?”
The professor said, kicking himself even as the words escaped his lips, “What question might that be?”
Susan smirked. “It’s what breed of FOWL—you foul boy—they in their secret moments aim their binoculars at?”
Tom’s lip quivered. “Um, Susan, this really isn’t a good time—”
“Chickens,” Susan bellowed. “Fresh young hens!”
Tom bit his fist then reached his hand into his pocket. “Oh, oh, what I wouldn’t do for a little clucker. Oh…!”
“Look, Suze,” John exclaimed. “His hand’s down there again. That’s where his rubber chicken’s at. He’s rubbing at it again, just like you keep telling not to do at the dinner table!”
Tom shook his head. “Thanks, pal, for the announcement.” Sighing, Tom withdrew his hand from his pocket.
Susan narrowed her eyes at Tom. She turned to their visitor. “Professor, can you believe it? My own brother—got a restraining order issued against him last week after Farmer Lawson went to the courts to complain. Keeps snoopin’ around poultry farms. You know, to be with the chickens. Not to eat, to pet. Sick, I tell you. Sick!”
“…oh…oh, for a tender young hen…”
“Professor, might I show you to the door and save my brother, us all, for that matter—”
“…oh…”
“—any further embarrassment?”
“Prof, now don’t forget to tell all your friends it’s not what Super John can do for you, but what you can do for Super John—by votin’ for him next November!”
“Then, we have this one.”
“Who, me?”
“Who, me, he asks. Listen to this—ah ha ha—listen to this, Professor, this one’s classic. So, Mr. John here works over at the Dollar General, and last month he got promoted to assistant store manager. Sure, assistant manager, but of one stinkin’ store. He starts thinkin’ he’s Gawwwd all of a sudden, and that he can do anything. So, clear outta the blue Mr. John says he wants to become a senator. Of all things, a senator. Amazing thing is, he’s serious. He wants to start campaigning next month!”
“Of course I’m serious. That motivational speaker in that infomercial I watched said if only you put your mind to it—”
Susan laughed, loudly. “Gotta have a mind before you can put it to something.”
“Oh, yeah? Well, all you do is throw cake at me all day long. I have to scrub the walls, halls, bookshelf, and ceiling. One time you even got frosting on my planned acceptance speech. I’m always baking cakes so you can turn around and throw them at me!”
Susan groaned. “You got a job. Now go get a life.”
“You’re half-baked, is what you are. Half baked!”
“I’m purpose-driven, and my number one purpose is to keep myself sane living with the likes of you-know-who. Oh, and by the way, your half-baked attempt at an insult makes about as much sense as your plans to become a senator.”
“Walk the line, you two.”
John and Susan froze.
Unfurrowing the lines in his forehead, the professor snorted then apologized for his out-of-character outburst. Also, he was sorry he had made the cat jump.
“That’s Fritter Ditter,” Susan said, waving at the orange tabby who, no longer yowling, ogled them with his twinkling cat-eyes from his perch by the living-room window. “She’s the fourth member of our crew. I forgot to introduce her. Oh, and if you’ll excuse me, it seems like she’s really been wanting to go out. Sorry for the meowing…” Susan strode to the sliding-glass door that gave way to the backyard then skated it open. The cat, motionless, kept his paws parked and his sights fixed in the direction of the kitchen table.
“C’mon, cat,” Susan beckoned. “Out!”
The professor stepped forward. “Look—” he said, pointing, “at this masterpiece, this wonderful opportunity you folks have got all to yourselves, at least for a little while longer. Idea: why not try and see if all the old stories are true? You have nothing to lose.” The professor winked at them, then at the cat. “Only remember—it’s not what you do, but what you don’t do. Well, this old-timer’s got a plane to catch. Must be going now…”
Susan and Tom escorted the professor to his rental car parked in the driveway.

______________________

“What do you guys think he meant when he suggested we try it?” John said, later that evening, having since returned to his usual task of sorting his Vote for Super John bumper stickers and pins on the kitchen table.

Susan mused. “Walk the line. I think what he meant was…seeing how we’ve got this painting for a bit, maybe we can see if we, too, like those awesome French women, can individually then all together pinpoint the same spot of line on the painting. Then, I guess, we follow the line…” Susan laughed. “Yeah, right. Not to say it wasn’t an interesting story.”

“Let’s try it anyway,” Tom proposed.

“Yes, let’s. Anything’s better than watching Mr. John sort his campaign stickers.”

“Blast it, you guys. You just messed up my count.” John slapped his palm against his forehead. “Okay, so now, was that last sticker one that I had put in the Adams County pile, or was it in the Weld County pile?”

Susan wanted to scream. Instead, she walked calmly to the refrigerator to get more cake.

* * *

The next evening the kitchen table at John and Susan’s house was transformed into what Susan dubbed “Toulier Painting Central.” That timeless masterpiece—the cardboard—lay at center of the table, surrounded on all sides like a memorial by books, encyclopedias, microfiche, online printouts, and newspaper articles. All day long the trio had read, pondered, and studied up on the painting and its storied history. At the library, Tom even dug up an old photograph of Dr. Stiller taken in the 1940s. The news caption read “Painting’s Lone Living Eyewitness Sees in Living Color.” The kitchen table was cleared. Only the painting was allowed to stay.

The time had come. They were going to try it.

“Pick a spot on a line, any line,” Tom said in the refrain of a side-show announcer.

Susan clapped excitedly. John chewed his nails.

“All right, on the count of three…” Tom looked at Susan; Susan at John; John at Tom; until all eyes turned to behold the cardboard. “One…” Tom cried, suddenly, “two…” he said, “three…!”

Their fingers darted: one to the center of the painting, one to the upper-left corner, one to right of center. Insomuch that the painting looked like it was being accused—

—of not working.

“Not even close,” Susan groaned.

They tried again.

“Look, improvement. We were within a foot of one another this time.”

And again.

“John, lamb, it’s the painting you’re supposed to point your chewy fingernail at, not the TV.”

“C-Span, though…” John whined.

“Cheer up, guys. It’s not what we do, it’s what we don’t do.” This quote by the professor, reiterated here by Tom, brought chills down the spines of all present. Only, what did it mean?

“Consider this, guys.” Tom sat up in his chair. “Toulier was a philosopher, right? And if this thing really is magic, if it really does work, well, then how come it doesn’t work for everyone? Some people can trace the lines, and others can’t. Exhibit A: ourselves, along with thousands of other color-blind wannabees. Exhibit B: Claire and Lucie, initiates into the Full Colored Life and who in their own day went whole chicken—oops, he he—I meant hog.” Tom swallowed. “Look, guys, I think it stands to reason that whatever conditions had propelled Toulier then Claire and Lucie along the path to a realization of this so-called Full Colored Life, those same real-life conditions need to be met in order to bring us to the same realization. In other words, it’s only if and as we walk the line in everyday life will we be able to walk the lines on the painting. Art imitates life?” Tom shrugged. “Just an idea. What do you think?”

Susan wasn’t sure. John looked lost. Still, mindful that they were the owners of a painting known the world over, the three of them felt an almost parental bond for the thing, a motivation, no less, to prove, if only to themselves, that the painting was every whit deserving of its reputation, distinction, mystery, popularity, praise, worth...

Tom raised an eyebrow. “I’d venture to say that based on our research today and on that TV show I watched that this painting is worth more than just two million dollars. I’m thinking the professor was just being conservative when he said that. I’m thinking more like five mill.”

“To supplement my campaign finance funds,” John roared with glee.

She swore under her breath. To calm herself, she exhaled, long and slow. She handled the old photograph of the professor. “Do you mean to tell me, Dr. Stiller,” she said to it, “there’s real-life stuff we gotta do in order to get ourselves to agree on which spot to point our fingers at? Oh, come on. Like what? What, for example?”

“It’s not what you do,” Tom said, “it’s what you don’t do.”

John rubbed his chin. “Um, I don’t get this at all. I thought I did but—”

“Piece of cake, moron!” Susan was on her feet. “It means if we’re gonna do this, and do it right, then we’re gonna have to start walkin’ the mother-stinkin’ line. No more pig-headed moves like wanting to run for senator or-or chasing chickens.”

“Or cake to the forehead,” Tom said, woodenly.

“About friggin’ time!” Susan darted glances to her left and right. “Now you’re getting me all riled up. Where’s my cake? Where’s it at!”

John clamped his eyes shut and prepared himself for another onslaught of Betty Crocker.

Tom kept more or less on task. “Okay, so…watching C-Span, chasing chickens, and the hurling of cake slices.” Frosting whacked Tom across the nose; it slapped his cheek, then his other cheek. His forehead was peppered then full-out bombed with chocolate sludge.

“Take that! And that! And…”

After exhausting her artillery with the words, “Better than sex with neighbors,” Susan, with the head-up poise of a baroness, strode with a graceful step and a splendiferous smirk back to her seat at the kitchen table. Her merriment fading, she informed her soiled comrades of her willingness to “quit the cake” if only they would “join her for a walk along a certain line” by quitting those bone-headed compulsions of theirs that always made her so mad. Tom and John buried their frosting-covered heads in their frosting-covered hands. Finally, they agreed, further agreeing to reconvene a week later at which time they would again try their hands at selecting the same spot of line on the painting.

It would be a most unpleasant week for all of them.

“What are you doing, Mr. John?” Susan asked three days later while standing in the living room with wide eyes. It was midnight. Her husband had not heard her tiptoe down the stairs. John was sitting in front of the television dressed in his necktie, Superman t-shirt, and nothing else. He was watching Road to the White House. His eyes bulged as they registered the presence of his wife.

“I, um, this isn’t what it looks…I was just flipping through the channels and just so happened to…”

“Excuse me for a moment,” Susan said, coolly.

She returned with the aptly named Infamous Platter, since tucked away in the back of the freezer and reserved as punishment for only the most serious pissed-Susan-offs. The frozen cake slices atop that platter were—

Rock hard.

“You weak…bastard you,” Susan moaned, the wrathful expression on her face not so wrathful that it failed to smile as she proceeded to share with her husband the frozen treats atop the Infamous Platter.

Tom likewise experienced difficulties that week. “This is the life,” he said, kicking back in front of his computer screen. With the accompaniment of his rubber chicken, Tom spent long, red-faced hours watching his favorite website HenHouseparty.com. Although images of feathery breasts and thighs thrilled Tom to no end, what really piqued his interest were the drive-by live shows; and so it was at least a partial victory, he told himself.

“Hey, guys, guess what?” Tom announced to Susan and John that Friday as he sashayed into their kitchen. He picked at the crusty flakes of chocolate residue on his Broncos jersey then popped them into his mouth. “Rode by Farmer Lawson’s yesterday. Not even one side-wards glance over. Put the pedal to the medal, even. Did you hear me? I didn’t look over!”

“Really?” Susan raised an eyebrow. “Fantastic.”

“Good for you, pal.” John presented his brother-in-law with a firm handshake.

While shaking John’s hand, Tom however began to grow morose, his guilt tearing at him. “Maybe we ought to, though,” Tom suggested, relinquishing the handshake, “give ourselves extra time to better prepare.”

John and Susan laughed. “What? Don’t think you’ll be ready? Don’t tell us you haven’t walked your line.”

“It’s not that, it’s just…okay, it is that. I can do better, though. And will. You’ll see.”

They decided to give it another week.

The big day finally arrived. Behind the cover of good-humored horseplay, badly-concealed nerves, and thinly-veiled remarks such as “At least we can say we tried; and even if we fail, still, we’ll be rich!” sounding through their minds was the thought: You fools! You don’t realize what I’ve had to put up with these past few days. Not allowing myself to watch C-Span, gape at fowl, throw a cake? It’s hell! This better be worth it. The three seated themselves.

Laid out on the table before them was Dark Meets Light Meets Death Meets Life.

Tom took the floor. “All right, has everyone walked their line? For the past hour, at least?” Nodding heads. “On the count of three, then. Ready? One…two…”

“Wait a sec, wait a sec,” Susan raised a hand. “I have a question. So, what if this turns out to be one of those close-but-no-cigar type scenarios?”

Tom shifted in his chair. “We all have to land on the same exact spot of cardboard. Close don’t count, sister.” He scratched his nose. “The process is very unforgiving.” Tom’s somber mood gave way to the urgency of the moment. Brightening he said, “Buckle up, buckos. Because here we go. Ready? One… two…”

“Wait a sec, wait a sec!” Susan cut in again. “So, what are the odds of that happening? A gazillion to one maybe?”

“At least that,” Tom said. “Okay, we need to stop interrupting the moderator so we can get going here. Now, one, two…ready?…three!”

It was in the upper-left hand corner, about three inches from the top, a half-inch off from the side. They butted fingertips.

“Holey moley,” John cried. “We did it!”

In the midst of a positive uproar, high-fives were shared all around. Susan excused herself to go call a friend at work to tell her the good news.

“Hold it!” Tom charged in a hoarse voice. “We’re not done yet, not even close. This is just the first step. Now, we have to walk the line we just landed on.”

John and Susan returned with wide eyes and without rebuttal back to their seats.

“I have a question,” John said, trembling.

“Go ahead.”

“Why did the professor that one day have to put, um, sunglasses on after he began studying the painting?”

Susan patted her husband on the back. “That’s a very good question, dear.”

“Not sure if I know the answer to that one,” Tom said. “Although, I do remember reading in one of those old newspaper articles something about a light. They referred to it as the Dead Light.”

“Dead Light? That sounds awf—”

Susan stopped in mid-sentence because she had noticed, from out of the corner of her eye, that something was happening on the painting.

It was a light, indeed, that Susan saw, a mere pinprick of light burgeoning out of the very spot where they had butted fingertips.

The light was growing bigger, and brighter, Susan noticed. The others noticed it too. It was impossible not to at this point.

A sudden burst of brightness, a spasm of light, and Susan, all off-kilter as she raised her arm to shield her keen and sensitive blue eyes, lost her balance and slipped off her chair.

“What in blazes is it?” John howled, his arm over his face.

“Dead Light—just like the news articles said!” Tom hollered, with a hand over his eyes. “Wow!”

In the living room, the cat began to yowl as if holed up in a tree with a pack of wild dogs clamoring below.

“I don’t know what’s worse,” Susan said, on the floor, laughing, “the sound of that cat in my ears or sight of this light in my eyes.”

“Fritter Ditter sees it too,” Tom said, stating the obvious.

All things considered, Tom, John, and Susan came to conclude that they were handling this surprise development rather well.

“Are you sure it’s not, like, glare…some other light, maybe, reflecting off of the painting?” Susan asked, as she muscled her way up off the linoleum flooring.

“It’s no reflection,” Tom said. “This light is way too bright, and too localized.”

“I think I’m blinded!” Jon bawled.

“You’re not blinded, dear.” Susan reached for her chair. She hoisted herself to her feet. “Don’t we have sunglasses, in the living room, maybe? I’ll go look…” Susan walked in that direction.

John howled, “I’m blinded! Whoever heard of a blind senator?”

Tom said, tightly, “It’s not that bright.” He thought about it. “All right, maybe it is that bright. It’s like a miniature sun. Sunglasses—we need ‘em. Where are they? Susan?”

Susan returned with three pairs of sunglasses. “For the boys,” she said, offering them the pink-and-purple, heart-framed, Dollar General clearance-rack specials that John had for some reason bought for the daughter they didn’t even have.

“And for big sis...” Susan said, claiming for herself the Ray-Bans.

Re-seating herself at the kitchen table alongside her snazzy-looking partners, “That helps,” Susan said, gazing in awe at the diamond of incandescence gleaming before them. A stillness prevailed, a stillness…unlike any other before experienced by Tom, John, and Susan. With stars in her eyes and thrill in her voice, finally, Susan said, “Its brilliance. Its clarity. This feeling I have inside of me all of a sudden, of wholeness, of completeness, of peace. The atmosphere…it’s active, like a million different things are happening here in this kitchen right now. The light feels more than just warm. It feels ALIVE.”

“Maybe we’re in a nuclear holocaust,” John said.

Tom adjusted his heart-framed sunglasses. “I agree, Susan, with everything you just said. Isn’t it weird, then, that they’d call it the Dead Light?”

Susan’s weak attempt at smile faltered then fell off entirely. “Yeah, Tom, but what about the colors? There’s no color here, just this brilliant light.” Susan slapped her hand on the table then rose to her feet. “Hold it,” she said, “I’m letting that cat out whether she wants to or not. Drivin’ me crazy.”

Susan walked off. Moments later she returned.

“No colors. Not yet, Susan,” Tom said, as Susan reseated herself. “The colors happen at the end when we’ve traced all the lines. This light marks the beginning. Dark Meets Light Meets Death Meets Life is letting us know that it recognizes our presence, and that it’s been awakened!”

“You make it sound,” John said, almost choking on the words, “like it’s human!”

“As unbelievable and absolutely freaky as that sounds,” Susan put in, “I don’t feel scared or freaked out at all. Actually, I got some for-real positive vibes going on right about now.”

“Feels like friggin’ heaven,” John said, with his eyes popping. “An’ I don’t even believe in heaven. I thought heaven was that guided tour we took last spring of the state capital building.”

“Senate hopefuls like you-know-who have gotta keep it together.” Tom patted John on the back. “They gotta learn how to exhibit grace under pressure. Only then will they get the votes they need to become senator.”

“Don’t encourage him,” Susan chided, sharply.

“Don’t encourage me what?” John snapped.

“You know what…?” Susan rolled up her sleeves, her expression darkening. “I’m thinking you’re not perceiving the nuclear holocaust that’s about to be released on your ass you keep on keeping on like you do. Know what I mean?”

John blinked, repeatedly. “No.”

“Of course you don’t. Cake, dear. Think cake to the face. Think embarrassment. Think pain.”

The Dead Light, they noticed, was beginning to grow dim, its luminescence dwindling to the brightness of a common penlight.

“Damn!” Susan cursed. “That wasn’t supposed to happen, was it?” She looked over. “And it’s all your fault!”

Tom nodded in agreement. “Wannabee-senator John does it again, makes a politically-incorrect faux pas, brings shame upon himself and his family, wins no electoral votes. My, my, my.”

“I was referring to you, Tom, you, for encouraging that SOB!”

The Dead Light mocked them with its dull, pen-light stare. John whizzed off to go watch TV. Susan warned of repercussions. The clock on the wall informed them that it was eight o’clock, and suggested to Tom that he best be going if ever he was going to catch the prime-time specials on Channel 157.

They decided to give it another week.

The next day, Susan invited their next-door neighbors over. Sure, Steve and Amy would stop by, and yeah, they would take a look at a “certain painting”. But no, they sure as heck could not see a “pen-tip sized light” shining in the upper-left-hand corner of some dirty old cardboard that Susan presumed to lay on her clean kitchen table. Steve left with a wink and a smile.

The ensuing week passed slowly. Tom, John, and Susan, slept little if at all. Evenings were the real culprit, what with the TV turned off and their reading glasses buried in one of Toulier’s philosophical works or an art commentary. Overwrought nerves wore the collective patience thin. And yet, when the following Sunday rolled around, the three had shaken off all of their jitters, and doubts, and were once again ready to walk the line.

Sporting the six pairs of sunglasses they had between them, they made steps for the inky composition laid out on the kitchen table.

“The time has come,” Tom said, solemnly. He extended an inviting nod to the others. Susan and John registered their presence and readiness with nods in return. “Now, I’m not even going to ask if you guys have walked your lines this past week because, well, just because. In the meantime, I haven’t failed to notice the absence of cake smears on the walls and windows. Also, C-Span isn’t on.”

“Let’s just say,” John answered, his face radiant with a smile, “that over this past week I have done nothing that would give certain people a reason to throw cake at me.”

“Let’s just say,” Susan said, “that even if I had a reason to hurl cake at someone, the plain and simple truth is—I haven’t.”

Tom smiled with genuine pride. “As for myself, even though I came super close last week to watching Hen-pecked After Dark on Channel 157—I didn’t. Haven’t been this chicken-free, guys, in years.”

John and Susan said that was good.

Tom, flushing, confessed that he was all but “chicken” of chicken now.

John raised his finger. “I’ve got something to say.”

“So do I,” Susan said.

“You go first,” John offered.

“No, you go first,” Susan smiled over.

“No, you go,” John insisted. “You beat me to the punch. You go ahead and say whatever it is you were wanting to say.”

Shaking her head, Susan repeated the words “Beat me to the punch.” She took her husband’s hand. “It’s not like that anymore between us, is it?” John and Susan shook mock fists at one another then erupted into laughter. Tom laughed, too.

“Look at us!” Susan exclaimed. “We’re arguing for one another instead of against one another.” She turned to her brother. “Tom, I just wanna tell you how proud I am of my John here. No C-Span for a week, and then just yesterday he says he’s gonna let me throw away all of his campaign stickers and buttons. What a super man.”

John gushed. “I’m slowly discovering that the world won’t come to an end if I don’t become senator.”

“No, it won’t,” Susan said. “Why do you forever feel that you have to be someone great in order to be someone special? All you have to be, guy, to be special, is just little brain-dead you.”

“I know,” John muttered, ruefully. “I know it.”

“Tears!” Susan exclaimed. “Can you believe it? The first time in, like, forever.” Susan lowered her sunglasses to sponge the corner of her eye with the tissue she had brought along just in case. She laughed. “Just kidding. No tears. I wish. Anyway,” she said, “I understand what the Dead Light’s all about now.” She pocketed the tissue. “And seeing as how my husband and I have become happy beneficiaries, so to speak, of what that Dead Light was meant to accomplish, I request that I be given the floor to explain.”

“Go ahead, Suze. I was about to get to that. In fact, maybe before we get started here we should discuss our research findings. It’d be good for us to know what we’re getting ourselves into.”

Susan straightened her sunglasses. “The Dead Light is just for placement, come to find out. All of the art commentary books say so. A supernatural phenomenon, sure, but nothing to be afraid of. It just identifies where we left off. Like a bookmark.”

“I read that, too,” Tom said shortly. “A bookmark. Lets us know where we left off.”

John ran his hands through his hair. “A bookmark? But, aren’t bookmarks things that, like, you stick inside of books? There are no books here, just a painting.” John sighed. “There’s so much I still don’t understand about all of this.”

Even as she sighed, Susan reached for her husband’s hand. “Monkey Bun, don’t you see?” She pointed at the TV. “You walk the line over there—” she pointed at the painting “—then you walk the line over here.” Susan looked afar off. “Imagine it, in place of a single Dead Light…a thousand! The whole cardboard, lit up, only in color.”

“Only a dead person…”

“Come again?” Susan squinted at Tom.

“Only a dead person…could look at something like that and not go blind,” Tom finished his sentence.

John’s jaw fell slack. “Are you saying we’re gonna be dead?”

“Maybe.” Tom produced a notebook then tore off three sheets, and distributed them. He called attention to the Dead Light that marked their starting point—the locale where the week earlier they had met fingertips. “Our bone-headed—to use Susan’s word—half-baked—to use John’s word—bad habits will die most curious and speculative deaths, no doubt. What’s more, we will live to tell. Now, we have our spot. We’re situated on a line. The question is, then, do we walk upward that line, or down it. We must each decide for ourselves, separately.”

“I think we should go—”

“Uht-uht. Write it down on the paper I gave you.”

John and Susan wasted no time to scribble.

“Are you sure our eyes will be okay?” John asked as he wrote. “That Dead Light seems to be getting brighter all of a sudden.”

“It does. And it is. It means the painting is acknowledging us, and our return. It will continue to brighten until it reaches its original brightness when first we had picked our spot. That’s why, guys, we need to keep these sunglasses on at all times.” Tom pondered. “Or maybe not. Thought I read somewhere that—”

Susan burst in, “That as we progress along the lines our eyes will adapt to the point we don’t even need sunglasses anymore.” Susan tapped her pen on the table. “Yes, I read that too. Something about how in walking the line stuff inside of us gets deadened which refines the higher senses, changes our perceptions, makes us see differently. Like a self transcendence sort of thing. Things we couldn’t see before all of a sudden we are able to see.”

“Like colors?” John said, appealingly.

Susan patted John’s hand. “Yes, dear, like the colors.”

Tom set his pen down on the table. “All right, has everyone chosen their direction? Okay, show us your choices.”

Three papers were ushered to the center of the table.

Down. Down. …

Susan nudged her husband. “Your paper is dyslexic,” she said, with good humor in her voice. John turned his paper right-side up.

…Down.

“Heck yeah!” Susan cheered. “We all picked the same direction!”

John pumped his fist into the air. “Am I dead yet? Am I dead yet? Can I live to tell yet?”

“Wait until you see what happens next.” Tom reared back then raised his voice at the painting, “We say unto you, down. Down, Dead Light, down…!”

It took the whole of maybe five seconds—

—for John to fall out of his chair, try to get up, smack his head against the underside of the kitchen table, smooth a hand over his head to see that his hair was not messed up, then run into the living room yelling at the top of his lungs about how surprised he was and how they were all maybe going to die.

The Dead Light had responded. It began to inch an ever so slow trail downward the line.

The thing was moving.

“See Dick, and Jane, and Jane’s brother…walk the line,” Tom barely got the words out.

“Holy surprise!” John shouted from his hiding spot behind the sofa.

“Oh, Monkey Bun. Why surprise? Now, just you get back over here. Didn’t you read that book I gave you?”

John peeked his head out from behind a sofa cushion. “I didn’t like that book you gave me, because, because…it didn’t have any pictures in it.”

“Oh, Monkey Bun.” Susan addressed her brother. “Tell me, Tom, why is it I don’t have the immediate strong impulse to heave a big ol’ corner piece at his noggin? Why, Tom, why? I’m not even upset.”

“The light,” Tom said, observing, “has stopped moving.”

Trembling all the way down to his red-white-and-blue furry slippers, John returned to the table.

“It’s ‘cause we’re at the next intersection,” Susan stated, triumphantly, greeting her husband with her hand outstretched as he settled in.

Glances were exchanged. “Let’s keep going,” Tom proposed.

They did.

Over the next twenty minutes, stirred on by their raging curiosities and amped-up nerves, Tom, John, and Susan, together inched their way forward and along the intersecting lines of the painting—creeping along this line here, transiting over to that line there, veering off to that other line over there. Recovering, finally, from his surprise, John would experience surprise all over again when at an intersection of four different lines offering seven different directions to choose from, the three had each scribbled “diagonal right.”

“Holy coincidence!” he yelped.

“It’s not a coincidence,” Susan said. “The painting has selected a path for us and we’re all in sync with what that path is and where it wants us to go. We’re all receiving the same impression in our subconscious, or something. Anyhow, we’re in unity.” She looked over at Tom. “For once.”

But not for long.

“Left…Left…Down…” their papers read at the knotty tangle of lines that proceeded.

“Susan, you were supposed to choose left!”

“I, but, I didn’t…”

“Geez, Suze, obviously you weren’t walkin’ your line this past week as well as you thought. Now John and I will have to push forward all by ourselves.” Tom cleared his throat. “We say unto you, left. Left, Dead Light, left!”

Nearly a minute passed.

No movement.

The Dead Light did nothing but shine on.

“Geez, guys, now I’ll have to push forward all by myself!” Jiggling her stacked sunglass arrangement to more properly align each RayBan frame, Susan eyed the painting. “I say unto you, down, Down, Dead Light, down!”

The Dead Light moved…down the line.

“She was right and we were wrong!” John cried, so resoundingly that all of the sparrows, chickadees, and finches on the other side of the window congregating en masse at the bird feeder spread their wings and jetted. “Luck, maybe?” John wondered aloud.

Beaming, Susan declared, “It’s because I walked the line this past week, peoples. Really walked it. You guys don’t even know.”

“How interesting…this all is.” Tom clicked his pen. “I guess this means that John and I are out. For now, anyway.”

“Should I keep going, just by myself?” Susan asked.

Tom dropped his pen. “I guess.” Carouseling his chair around, he reached for one of the research volumes that rose in semi-neat stacks atop the counter-top behind him. Flipping pages, he said, “Yeah, Suze, you must’ve walked your line this week pretty darn well. I mean, seein’ how you’re obviously more in tune with the painting and the direction it would have us to go. Hmm…”

Susan nodded. A gleam shone in her eye—of pride. However, it was more than just pride; she felt genuine satisfaction in herself. She felt, well—she thought about it, as she stole a glance out the window—happy. She made a move for the cache of study materials. An encyclopedia of art history caught her eye; she seized it. “Yeah, maybe one of these books will tell us more…”

With Tom and Susan’s noses buried in their volumes, weary of over-sized volumes with big words and small typeset in them, and bored beyond belief, John slipped off to go to the bathroom.

Setting his book down, Tom declared that he, too, needed to “take a leak”.

“What, in the same bathroom?” Susan yelled, seeing Tom open the bathroom door that her husband had just snapped shut. “Peeing at the same time, together? Is that a thing?”

“You guessed it, pal,” Tom said to John as he entered, who, thunderstruck, was in the process of giving it one last shake. “I did goof this past week. Though, just once.” Tom rattled the door shut behind him. “Cluckme.com posted a special gallery of Norfolk Greys—an exotic breed, ooh. And so, yeah, I checked it out, but only for like a minute or two. Or twenty. Probably that’s why I chose the wrong direction just now.”

John zippered it up. “Don’t tell Susan this…” he said, avoiding eye contact as he washed his hands. “But remember when I mentioned about how I had told her that I was gonna let her destroy all of my campaign stickers and stuff...?”

Susan looked up from her book. “What was that all about, guys? I thought the expression was coming out of the closet, not coming out of the bathroom. Yet here the two of you come.”

John’s attempt at a casual manner was about as disingenuous as the fingers he had crossed behind his back. “I was just in there telling Tom,” John said, fidgeting, his voice coming through in strained monotone, “about how the bird feeder…it needs refilling. Which means that I’ll have to go fill it up—with seed, of course, after we get done here.” John snagged the nearest-by book with big words in it and plunged his face in.

Susan looked out the back window. “But, look—the feeder’s filled to the top.”

Tom trotted over to look out the window. Standing beside his sister, he said, “Heck, just a few minutes ago there were, like, a thousand birds out there.”

A twinkle shown in Susan’s eye. “Yeah, but did you notice that the birds weren’t snacking. They were watching. Us.”

Tom rubbed his chin. Returning to the table, he said, “John…has something he wants to share with you, Susan.”

John made a strangled noise. “No, I don’t…have anything to say.”

“Something about all that campaign paraphernalia he told you that he would let you get rid of…” Squirming around in his chair, Tom folded his hands. “Listen, I think each of us needs to be as honest as possible about our lines. That way, we’ll be able to better understand why sometimes we can progress along the lines and sometimes, like now, we can’t. So, go ahead, John. Susan doesn’t bite.”

“Usually.” Susan’s face was impassive.

John sighed. “Well, remember how I said that I would let you get rid of all that stuff then handed it over to you?”

“Yeah,” said said. “I stuffed all that crap away in a big garbage bag. It’s ready and waiting for its big date tomorrow morning with the trash-man.”

“Well, that’s not all of it.” John cringed. “The truth is, that I still have the templates for all that stuff stashed away in a compartment in the study. I can easily them take to the Fed Ex store and have a new batch of stickers and pins made. So, for you to give to the garbage-man all that stuff I gave you really doesn’t mean a thing.”

With studied quietness Susan contemplated her husband’s confession. Until, finally, “You lying bastard!” she spat.

“Bird feeder time...” John said, as he bolted for the back door.

“Oh, Baldy, dear…” Susan called over with the smoothness of full resolve in her voice. “Would you please be a lamb and get us a bowl from the cabinet, beaters from underneath the sink, and an egg from the fridge. Oh, and the Betty Crocker mix from the pantry—do grab that for us, too, please.”

Tom exhaled, loudly. “The painting, Susan. Your Dead Light is at the next junction of lines. Why not guess a direction. You were doing so well.”

Susan hung her head. Sighing, she raised it. “Fine.” She eyed the painting. In a dispassionate voice she grumbled, “I say unto you, up. Up, Dead Light, up.”

One minute, turned into two minutes, turned into three.

The Dead Light moved not at all.

“Dead Light. Ha! What a name.” Susan took leave of her seat. “So, what I’m thinkin’ is that maybe we’re all in the mood for some dessert? Hows abouts it, laddies?”

To see if the coast was clear, John skidded the back door open and poked his head into the living room.

“Thanks, pal, for ordering us dessert,” Tom said to him with an angry glare. Rising, Tom plodded over and took into his hand the old photograph. “What now, Professor?” he asked it. “Another week of trying to walk the line, I guess.”

* * *

The following Saturday, Tom paid his scheduled visit to Susan and John’s house, taking the greatest of pains to steer clear of poultry farms along the way.

“Guys,” Tom sang, walking in the front door unannounced. “Guess what? I’ve been chicken-free this entire past week. Never been more proud of myself.” Tom pumped his fist.

John’s eyes remained on the TV screen.

From her seat on the recliner, Susan flitted a look over then returned her attention to her magazine.

Tom went on, “I think I’ve got a feel for what this Full Colored Life is all about now, guys.” He stepped into the living room. “Without the chicken distractions, I find myself able to focus better on other things. I washed my clothes, even. Look!” He stuck out his chest with Polo shirt covering. “All of a sudden, I am able to sit still and quiet, and as I do, things come to me, ideas I’ve never had before. Like, well, trying another hair-growth product besides Rogaine. Duh, just because it’s one of the best brands doesn’t mean it’s the only brand, right? Well, the off brand I bought is working just fine. See?” Tom pointed at the few sprouty stubs on the top of his head. “Also, my rubber chicken is thanking me for some much-needed time off.” Tom pulled out his pant pockets. No chicken.

Tom walked over then plunked himself down at the kitchen table. Folding his hands behind his head, he leaned back. “Wow. Whoever thought that keeping myself from doing what makes me the happiest makes me the happiest of all?” Tom fell forward in his chair. He frowned. “Hey, where are your guys’ sunglasses? Heck, where’s the painting? Are we gonna do this, or what?”

“Basement,” Susan answered, stiffly. “Cat was meowing his head off; Dead Light was shining like some kinda nuclear holocaust. We decided we’d had enough.”

“Happy is b-o-a-r-i-n-g,” John declared from his spot on the sofa in the living room. Tom noticed C-Span on the TV screen.

The muddled silence that ensued was infiltrated only by the long-winded ramblings of some government official filtering through as background noise.

Finally, Tom summoned the courage to say, “Well, maybe it’s supposed to be boring. I mean, aren’t we supposed to be dying here, in a kind of sense?””

“Dying is b-o-a-r-i-n-g,” John said.

Susan nodded in agreement. She turned a page in her magazine.

Tom removed the sunglasses that he suddenly he realized he did not need. “But you’re not happy—not really. You’re not at peace, not in the philosophical sense.” Tom wasn’t altogether sure what being “at peace” in the philosophical sense meant, still it sounded like the thing to say.

Susan looked up from her magazine.

Tom said to her, “The Full Colored Life—a better, more meaningful life than you’ve ever lived before.”

Seizing a sofa cushion then snuggling under his arm like a teddy bear, John said, “I wanna live now. Not tomorrow, not next week, not never—which is when this Full Colored Life thing will happen. Never.” He returned his sights to his program.

Tom grated, “You want C-Span to live, you mean. The things you say that you love but really hate that you love.” Tom turned to his sister. “Susan, and do you wanna be thwacking people with cake your whole life?”

Susan flung her magazine over her shoulder, pages flailing. “Who’s to say I don’t enjoy thwacking people—certain people, who deserve it—with cake?”

“You enjoy it, but you don’t. Look—see these spaces here? Oh wait, excuse me for a just a sec…” Tom padded over then opened the basement door. He bounded down the stairs, bounded back up again, then snapped the basement door shut, placing, ever so gently, the painting on the kitchen table. He directed attention to the virgin spaces of cardboard untouched by ink line. “See, these spaces here. They’re what? White and empty. Well, that’s a picture of us as we become deadened, so to speak, to all of the contrary stuff in our lives. Listen—it’s those dead, dull, white empty areas that get stain-glassed in with color after we walk all the lines. Walking the line is boring, you say? Maybe. But not forever, because every line leads somewhere. Death meets life, guys, and that life is what will soon meet us if only we can finish what we started here. The Full Colored Life. Perfect happiness.”

Susan yawned. From his sofa spot John asked if Tom might please shut the heck up for two seconds so that Susan could tell him the good news.

Tom stirred. “Good news?”

Susan joined Tom at the kitchen table. “Some guy who knows some other guy who knows the professor—called. He had heard through the grapevine about our little discovery. This dude has offered us, straight-out, three million dollars for the painting. Is good, yes?”

Tom sat speechless. His thoughts went every which way. At length he said, “You accepted?”

Susan’s eyes bulged. “What do you think?”

After a moment’s reflection, Tom surprised everyone, including himself, in answering, “Well, technically we don’t even have to have the painting in our possession to get The Full Colored Life. Ever hear of reprints? All we would have to do, then, is to—”

“Now I can buy a van,” John exclaimed.

Susan stared her husband.

Tom furrowed his brow. “Why would you wanna buy a van?”

“For the campaign trail, of course.”

Susan slammed her fists down upon the table. “Oh no, you don’t. OH NO, YOU DON’T.”

Treading a path with slow paces across the living room carpet, John straightened his invisible necktie then delivered in his best speech-maker’s tenor, “You ask what your state can do for you. A more pregnant question might be…what can you do for your state. You ask why I want to buy a van, a more pregnant question might be—”

“What did you just say?” Susan’s narrowed eyes looked almost as unforgiving as her clenched fists.

“Ah, snap.” Tom shook his head even as he scrambled for cover underneath the kitchen table. “Another politically-incorrect faux pas made by Super John. My, my, my.”

“Pregnant, John? Couldn’t you come up with a better word for your stupid, never-gonna-happen-anyway acceptance speech besides that particular one?”

“Say you’re sorry,” Tom blurted from underneath the table. “Then, beg her forgiveness.”

“But I didn’t mean—”

“Holy smokes, just say you’re sorry!”

“I’m sorry,” John sniveled. “I meant, a better question might be…”

“Better you kept your mouth shut, more like.” In obsequious display, Susan laid out on the counter-top the bowl, the beaters, the spatula, five eggs, the cake mix, oil, and butter. “Come on,” she told the poking-out heads. “You guys know what time it is.”

It wasn’t long before John had his spatula whirling. And while he found the occasion to announce to the others the identity of his choice for running mate, for “vice senator,” Tom, not listening, would call to mind that vision that forever he had had and reckoned all but inevitable now with his coming share of that three million dollars. A road-trip, from Julesburg to Durango, with stops at poultry farms all along the way: the mere thought of thousands of chickens just waiting to be visually devoured was enough to make Tom’s flesh rise. It was enough, even, to make him forget about a certain line.


A week later the big check arrived in the mail. With Susan, Tom, and John each receiving their cut of the riches, each of them wasted no time in getting down to the business at hand of spending it. John purchased that van he so wanted. Also, he purchased a suit-and-tie ensemble for each day of the week. One afternoon, not long afterwards, John asked his wife to tie one of his neckties for him—which Susan did, however, much too tightly, and while driving in his new van all but choking to death and attempting to loosen the tie’s stranglehold on his neck, John veered the off of the road and crashed into a tree.

Although John’s new campaign slogan “Super Paraplegic Man” would generate enough sympathy appeal to win him the votes of grassroots supporters like Tom and John’s co-workers at the Dollar General, voters in the main tended to shy away from this physically (and mentally, according to the consensus) incapacitated candidate. John never made it out of the primaries, or the hospital.

With John laid up in traction in the intensive-care unit, Susan was forced to hire a jobless, perv neighbor named Eddie Something-or-other to act as her live-in maid. Eddie would end up performing for Susan a great deal more than just his official job duty of baking cakes. With so many cakes baked by Eddie and an ever-decreasing number of targets to choose from, finally Susan made the fateful decision to bring her cakes with her to work. Whenever a co-worker, or one of her bosses defied, underestimated, or in any way annoyed Susan—they would receive their “just dessert,” as Susan liked to refer to it. Susan burned through eight jobs until finally she resigned herself to selling homemade cakes on eBay. This business was not a success, however, as most of Susan’s inventory ended up on Eddie Something-or-other.

Taking his long-anticipated road-trip across the state Tom was nabbed finally in Gunnison. He was sentenced to two months in county jail for “harassing” a chicken with “fowl intent to manhandle.”

Nor did the painting itself escape the icy grip of misfortune. Had not John and Susan been so caught up in haggling over the details of their imminent divorce they might have given more thought to the would-be buyer. It passed into the hands of a self-described “art addict” who had accumulated his small fortune by robbing Chase Manhattan ATMs and who had somehow totally convinced himself that he was doing the art world a favor by showcasing it in his foyer instead of in a museum. It did not at all bring the art addict the as-advertised “life of perfect happiness.” Even the rumored Dead Light refused to shine for him.

Convinced that he had been had, the art addict filed a lawsuit against Tom, John, and Susan for three million dollars. The day after the lawsuit was filed, Professor Stiller contacted the plaintiff and on behalf of The New York Museum of Fine Art agreed to purchase the painting for that very price. The lawsuit was dropped.

Today, Dark Meets Light Meets Death Meets Life displays in The New York Museum of Fine Art’s modern art wing. Upon its unveiling to a new generation of art enthusiasts, thousands have come to experience, firsthand, what is now known the world over as The Full Colored Life.

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